This is whats up.

Alright, surprisingly, there are a few updates in the last month. Still seriously thinking about film school- but haven't decided yet. I wanted to go to this one here in Michigan, but they don't do personal tours anymore I guess- kinda lame.

And- ready for this? I think I'm working at camp again this summer. Again. This is my 5th year- the 4th year that I said "I can't afford it", and I still probably can't, but we'll see what happens right? God will provide if he's for it. Can't even believe it. Sam Tan is kinda upset about it, sorry Sam. Didn't expect it to happen! I really didn't. I'm having trouble keeping focused to be honest. I've got a lot on my mind lately. This summer just won't be like last.

I was supposed to go to camp with Laura and Kris the other day (then Kris backed out- she has to teach sunday school) and Laura called this morning to let me know that Sarah (at camp) has a fever, so we won't be visiting. Rough day.

Why does life have to be so complicated? God is good.

I'm 24 now, thats different. Well, a quick update on the film school idea. I've put a lot of thought into it (though not nearly enough, I'm still way off from making a decision). I talked to my parents about it and really got a much better response than I expected. They just expressed concern for financial aid. Who knows how that'll work. But, as I'd anticipated, my dad said "I told you that 6 years ago", which he did. But who knows what is to come?

Here is what's new

Figured I'd update, its been almost a month. School started up and I'm feeling pretty good about this semester, I have one class a day (all but monday) and wednesday I also have a guitar lesson. I'm finding myself deep in thought a lot lately wondering about the future, reflecting on the past and wondering what is to come. I'm almost done with my graphic design degree and have been planning on finding a job in a church after graduating. I've wondered about a lot of ideas- living abroad for a while, doing a variety of things that I won't be able to do later in life. My experience in Greece has me wondering if living out of the country for a while would be good for me.

I hesitate to even type this next part out, because I know how dangerous this idea can be (and how upset it might make my parents...haha) but in the last few hours, I've started wondering (again...) if I should think about a career in film. Before I started school at Spring Arbor, I seriously considered going to a film school and getting a degree in "video production" of some sort- directing or writing or everything. Suddenly I'm wondering if that is something I should still consider. I'm in no shape to pay for anything right now, so financially its a ridiculous thought, but somehow I wonder if its something I was born to do- cliche as that sounds. A lot of these film programs are a little over a year to 2 years, so it wouldn't be another 4, but more school debt is not something I'm enthusiastic about. I just don't want to be 10 years from now, thinking "I should have gone for that". Anyway, its just a thought, don't put it in stone, but somehow its working its way into my mind. I'm going to be praying about it, I'd love it if others would join in.

Life is pretty good right now, no real complaints. My mind is so wrapped in this film thing that I can't even think about what else I was going to update on. Maybe later.

School starts up again soon, I haven't been taking a Jterm- a January term (if you don't go to the select few schools that have them). I've been doing some drawing and a lot of relaxing. To be honest I'm getting some cabin fever, not a ton to do in Jackson. But I'm heading to my parents' house tomorrow (I've been here for a week, staying with my housemate). My life is not as adventurous as I'd like, but I'm working on it.

On another note, I only have 1 class remaining that I must take before I graduate. However, I may fill up my schedule in order to get the financial aid I need. Long story. But I'm so close to graduating, isn't that crazy? And it only took 6 years... oh my.